Two A.M. Lovesick
October 1, 2012
Life
It’s a truly messed up thing
One day
You’re happy and clever with ideas
The next
You’re mind is clouded with doubt
That you deserve to see tomorrow
Sometimes
A slit wrist seems the best solution
When you even tell yourself
That no one wants you
Why bother with another breath
But then again
You should bother
Out of all of the possible combinations
The world gave your parents you
No one else that day of birth
But you
Life
It’s a truly messed up thing
But being able to say
That you raised up from the darkness
Pushed aside taunts and evils
Shows the strength you possess
A strength few will ever come to know
Hold onto it tight
And show it off with pride
You gave yourself the right to breath
The right to speak and think
And no one can take that away from you
You are the daughter
Of a girl named star
Third Times A Charm
September 30, 2012
I’ve come to realize
You can’t give up on someone
Who left long ago
Left behind a relationship
That might have been confusing
And difficult to handle at times
But still deep down
It was a mutual understanding
Perhaps even a connection
I might have lit the match
But you supplied the gasoline
This history that we complied
Was truly not a pleasure to burn
All of what we had
Watching as it melted
Only reminded of the day we met
When my teenage heart melted for you
This true displeasure
I can only manage through it
Because I know now
Now that I am trying to rid of you
I can put aside and throw away
The pain and harsh inconvenience
You have caused me
What an utter mess I have made
Of myself and those around me
Complain complain complain
Must be the only thing people hear from me
With you dissolved from my life
Maybe I can sing to a new tune
A little rhyme that has nothing to do
With the unhappiness I feel for you
I must admit of course
All of this would be totally different
If you just fought for me
I never expected a knight
Or an one-knee suggestion
An apology would be just fine
Maybe it was your pride
Or then again
Maybe you’re just that stubborn
To confess your true sins
Of breaking and using only when convinent
A hard-shelled girl
Who was too nice to anyone
That showed a bit of compassion or care
Demolished Playground
September 16, 2012
Please remind me
Of when tomorrow seemed to take forever
A doll was a companion
The world wasn’t evil
And anything was enough
I’m not ready
For the suit and tie
Nine to five
Stand on your own two feet
Kind of life
Strength (A poem dedicated to a dear friend of mine)
July 1, 2012
To be strong
Is to know when to give in
To realize you are you right
Or you may be wrong
To give others the hope you possess
Just so they can make it through the day
When others cannot cry
Lending a few tears of your own
Sharing the faith you have in others
Allowing them to then know
They do mean something
Creating a smile when times are dark
And shining it into those hearts
Who need a bit of loving light
This is strength
This is you
Walk Away
May 24, 2012
There comes a point
When you can’t apologize anymore
I have to regain my dignity
And saying I’m sorry
Will only put it further off
I care for you
Really and truly
But I can’t stand
Being made into a villain
I promise you
I’m not a bad friend
But you’ve made me out to be one
So why should I even bother
When you’ve left me alone
With no good memories
To put my mind at rest
You decided this for yourself
Luckily
I realized this would happen
I knew that one day
You would leave me
Run away from the problems at hand
Because I could never fix you
Gone
May 24, 2012
So you think I left you
But you were gone months ago
You told me to find another
When we both know I only want you
My heart aches
But I know I have to let you go
You claim your gone from my life
But any prophet would know
You’ll be crawling back to me soon
When that day comes
I have to be strong enough to say
I’m sorry
I don’t know you
But if you’ve seen my friend
Tell him I said I miss him
Tired
May 24, 2012
It’s fine
You obviously don’t want my help
I’ll just scoot along
No more glances your way
Tired
Too tired
To try anymore
You’ve gone from a precious friend
To a hopeless cause
Warnings
The warnings
Everyone’s telling me to give up on you
But I just can’t
Holding on too desperately
Anxious
March 18, 2012
I’m anxious for you
Waiting to see if you could be
Some one to complete me
And fill in the hole that has grown inside of me
I have must confess though
I can’t promise I’ll be easy to deal with
From inside to outside
I’m broken
From all of the bad things I’ve seen
And all of the things I’ve never had
Alone isn’t always lonely
February 29, 2012
My best days
Are the days when me and the world
Become two separate entities
My very thoughts
Become distant from everything around me
Theses days sometimes seem
To be the only time when I
Can understand what I want
When my mind is clouded with everyone else
I am pushed into the back to beĀ forgotten
These days when I am alone
I’m not always lonely
Rather I am accompanied by the me inside
Fame, Fortune, And The Pursuit Of Recognition
February 2, 2012
What do I want more
To have my face flash behind their eyelids at the sound of my name
Or when they see my face
Have them remember the change I personally made in their life
What’s the point of having your name in lights
If you’ve never truly touched someone’s heart
But if I choice this path
That may end in everyone knowing who I am
What if it turns out no one cares to remember me
But if I choose the other
I could be giving up my chance to be in the spotlight
Where am I supposed to put all of my expectations and effort
When I can’t even make up my mind on what I want to do with myself