What do I want more

To have my face flash behind their eyelids at the sound of my name

Or when they see my face

Have them remember the change I personally made in their life

What’s the point of having your name in lights

If you’ve never truly touched someone’s heart

But if I choice this path

That may end in everyone knowing who I am

What if it turns out no one cares to remember me

But if I choose the other

I could be giving up my chance to be in the spotlight

Where am I supposed to put all of my expectations and effort

When I can’t even make up my mind on what I want to do with myself

New Year

December 31, 2011

Who ever knew

That so many tears

Could be shed in just one year

I’ve faced everything

I never wanted to deal with

My heart has been torn

And broken

In more ways than I can count

I’ve been let down

And just plain out

Destroyed

But worse of all

I feel as if I’ve lost it all

From the very beginning and life of me

To the dreams that I held so close

So

What can I possibly look forward to

When the past year

Has been nothing but

A true awful experience

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